Who am I?

Normally i'm a quite, easy going guy in general. Where i work, it could be considered a tad more conservative and i'm prolly a bit more reserved and stiff coz i'm pretty new and don't want to say the wrong thing/step on anyone's toes.

funny thing is, i came late to a training session in the morning the other day and was hoping to slide quitely into the boardroom. But one of the managers says out loud: "it's the Ho-star! he's finally here!". And i was like in a mumbling tiny voice :"hi". "Hey Matty, you haven't done your tie up, wake up late or something?". At a loss for words i manage to say "woke up late, mumble mumble". feel slightly embarrassed.

Moral of the story: It seems that you can't escape attention when your the ho-star.

In my opinion, my communication skills are alright, its just when the whole room is looking at me. reading hoi's blog the other day, i was feeling his nervousness about speaking in front of people. i think i've improved heaps but in general social situations i feel like that's an area that i can get better at.

What i also find kinda funny is that i really force myself to speak when i'm in interviews - a situation that you have to speak. Like i've got my game face on. It's kinda fake though, like your trying to prove that your outgoing, have personality, are a great communicator etc.

Other situations where i feel comfortable is in the classroom. I'm one of those people that actually answers half the questions in class and asks them as well. Am i a nerd?! I'd like to think not its just that i've just got no fear in those kinda of situations as opposed to others. I guess it depends on your comfort levels.

I wouldn't say that i am loud, prolly the other end of the specturm. Depending on who i'm with, i'm generally not that open with people that i don't really know well - until i guess your in my "inner sactum". There are just some people that you are really clicky with and feel comfortable talking to them and it takes time to know the "Ho-star". I'm the type of person that prolly doesn't want to be the centre of attention, as in i'm not too comfortable with the spotlight bearing down on me. I could never be the franchise player of an NBA team for example (but then again, it could be the skills that i am lacking! Think Vince Carter, Rasheed Wallace, or maybe not). The type of person i want to be is laidback, cool, in the background pulling the strings, with all the connections and know how.


Rene Rivkin Style.

For work i had to complete some independence/conflict of interest course. So what did i do when i got home?

Registered for the ASX share market trading game and started buying shares in most of the clients that i work with or are my firm's clients.

Can you say insider trading?

Randoms.

* All star game downloads! Check out this website! You can download NBA games, including the 2005 All Star Weekend. I'm not sure if it works as i am currently d/l it. Its a "bit torrent" - some kind of downloading software term. Another useful site for downloads

* Go the Street Smarts! just watched three episodes of the Apprentice 3. So rooting for the underdogs, even though i'm prolly one of the book smarts. To be successful in business, i think it's important to have a combo of street smarts and book smarts.

*Midnight Yum Cha at East Ocean, Chinatown. Hmmm. Interesting concept but none of those moving carts. You have to order from the menu, not a large variety and it comes hot but its prolly premade and steamed up. Full of non-chinese people. On at 10pm-2am.

Peace out, DJ HO.