PURPOSE

It's easier for me to write a post about basketball or music or random points. Its the deeper, "I've got to kinda think" posts that I struggle with. Trying to find the right words to express myself, to articulate what's on my mind and to be able to connect with you, the reader.

I've just been thinking lately that in life you got to have some purpose for your existence. Or at least feel like you have some purpose for living. The day that you lose that reason for existing may be the day you breathe your very last breath. I guess one of reasons for writing about this is my grandma. Despite being 80 years young, she still pretty spritely, lively and would still deliver a beatdown on a potential mugger. I think for her age she should be a lot more frail, sick and so on.

But what's her secret? Why is she climbing on the roof of our house to clean the leaves when most people her age can't even get out of a wheel chair.

Speaking for my grandma its because she feels like she has responsibilites its given her a reason to live. She's got certain things, I guess routines that she does each day and each week. Every weekend, she feels that she has to vacuum the house or every morning to make my breakfast and lunch to take to work. Some days, she'll feel like cleaning all the windows in the house or to clean all the bed linen. By having these "tasks" it makes her feel like she's contributing to the household and has duties to fulfil. Otherwise she'd just sit at home all day with nothing to do. I'm not saying that we should all make our grandma's household slaves. But if you have things to do, you feels like you have some worth.

I think one of the key reasons people commit suicide is because they lose that reason to live. Its like no-one would care if they simply were gone. They have lost that connection to the outside world. If you have friends, relatives, people that you have to communicate with it gives you the notion that that someone would care about you if you were gone. So what we have done with our Grandma is take her to Church social outings, we go out as a family to eat sometimes, and I take her shopping on a semi-regular basis cause for her its like an adventure to the outside world.

It's important to have some reason to wake up in the morning. Some job that your committed to, some task that you need to perform, someone to meet or at least something to keep you occupied.

Incarcerated Scarfaces

When my bro came home last Monday, I was pretty hyped up as he gave a copy (perfectly legal of course) of the new movie Assault on Precint 13. How to describe the movie? Western style shootout in suburbia. One of the main actors is Laurence Fishburne who always play this really slick character, and this mutha is always so smooth.

L-Fish's character is Bishop, a gang boss with a penchant for executing people. Bishop is arrested and is being transferred to a prison. Whilst travelling, the bus is stopped by bad weather and then have to take an overnight stay at a run-down, soon to be shutdown police station. Everything is cool, until some bad dudes find out where Bishop is staying and want to extract him. The cops and prisoners barricade themselves inside and an ole shoot-em up occurs.

On the DJ HO scale, 7 out of 10. It's not a must-see, however plenty of action and guns, and Ja Rule shows why he should stick to rapping.