Just relax.......

This is the first night in a long time that I can sit back and relax. It feels so goooooood. I've forgotten what it's like to have time to myself. On Monday, I completed phase 1 of becoming Tax Master Ho, doing my first post grad exam. The exam brought back a lot of memories and emotional states. Cramming the two days before, panicking, stressing out, worrying about the ticking of the clock, spending too much time on one question, thinking "have I even answered the question?". Let's just say, I don't miss that part of uni.

And yesterday was bad. Went into work thinking I'm gonna take it easy, then all this work starts coming in. Ended up eating dinner at work, leaving at 7pm and taking work home. It was 9pm before I sat down at my desk at home and I thought 'stuff this!'. Instead, got up at 6am and got to work at 8am, and made sure I left early and grabbed my Bugg'n Tour Concert ticket. In case you don't know its Methodman, Redman, Premier, Rahzel on the one bill.....mad!!!!!!

In sa curities

You know what else? I was walking home tonite to get some exercise and thought twice about it. The reason being was that slighty more than a year ago, I was jumped/mugged/robbed/rolled on the way home. I can't walk home at night now without turning around at least 50 times to see if anyone is behind me. There's more caution as to what streets I walk now. I avoid the path that I had taken for the last 15 years of my life. It's dark, isolated, and basically the perfect place to get robbed at night.

That's one of biggest insecurities at the moment. It's like I don't feel comfortable walking in my own suburb after dark anymore. There's always that thought that I might get robbed, that the streets are watching. That someone could be following me like those two guys were that fateful night. I'm jump at every shadow, I question the footsteps behind me, I mean I even ran home in my suit once! I don't like that feeling of being afraid, not being in control.

Second biggest insecurity? I just don't like the way that I look right now. Acne has cursed me from my high school days and still bothers me and I'm friggin 23! I hate having pimples, it just kills my confidence ya know? It's like something that won't go away. I look at all the beautiful people with their perfect skin, damn even the average person my age doesn't even have it anymore. I'm going to get a second medical opinon cause the last doctor i went to gave me some 6 month antibiotic medication, but that's just too full on - it's not that bad (i hope!).


Above the Law

Yei - I completed my practical legal experience today. The short of it? I've passed all components to be a lawyer. Academic and work experience - all on lockdown baby. Submitted my papers, so hopefully I'll be admitted in December. The bad part? I can't say this line anymore:

"Nah i ain't pass the bar but i know a little bit/Enough that you won't illegally search my shit"

Gonna miss that line from Jay-Z's 99 Problems. Cause I would have passed the bar yo! Well, at least the Aussie equivalent. Big ups to my man, the crazy serb Alex for offering to move my admission. For you non-legal peeps, you need a lawyer (i.e. someone that has been admitted) to vouch for you. Kinda like when you join the mafia, you need someone to show that your down for whatever, that your cool. It's the same when you become a lawyer and I'm glad that he could do it. December 2nd - mark that in your diary - the day DJ Ho finally becomes Solicitor Ho. There'll definently be an after party - delayed cause my final exam is on the 5th.

1 luv to all my fans (Sheena - are you still barred?!)

Much love to all the Katrina displaced peoples. Gotta give props to the NBA playas for donating time for the charity game and for giving so much. And Marbury/Duhon for their donations. Remove Bush out of power! You right Kanye, cause he hates black people.

Link of the week - Obi's new hip hop complilation. Noice!

Peace Out,

DJ Ho.